alternative health, holistic healing, my medical marijuana journey

My Medical Marijuana Journey; an experiment: volume five, six & beyond

article-picWell, it’s been since April that we celebrated the success of the experiment. In one month we were able to build a better, faster more competent cure.

The most amazing part of this story at an overall is that we seem to have, in a very short time- rehabilitated my reproductive system.

The results of the ultrasound shown in volume 4 were no lie. The eradication of the supposed cancerous mass proved a worthy feat and one that we undertook in faith and trepidation. Post results, however there was still no answer to the initial question and the OBGYN @ hand offered nothing in the way of solutions ( except the aforementioned hormones he was pushing. ) I decided that i wanted a second opinion. The OBGYN serving me at the time of this ordeal had not done much to help me really other than point out something that needed to be cured, which i then took it upon myself to cure… So off i went, back to the original Doctor.  After confronting her errors about pretty much everything she put forth to me, she didnt seem too interested in attesting to her true lack of knowledge in what was really going on. Each time i mentioned to one of these western medicine Dr’s that i had cured myself holistically – none seemed too interested, too surprised or expressed any further inquiry into the matter. What it comes down to, is  simple programming, these Dr’s spend half their lives being educated to work a failing system, give health advice by synthetic standards ( read: the health canada food guidelines which are stealthly crafted to manifest illness, perpetuate obesity and heart disease and boost bottom lines. ) So when it comes to the mention of anything holistic whatsoever, be it TCM, naturopathy or even a simple question of an herb you hear:  ” I cannot attest to the efficacy, there is no solid research backing, there are no standardized doses approved by any regulatory body ” etc. etc. – What those peeps do have standardized though, is a list of dismissals to pull from.

Not only do they have a lack of interest and knowledge, but they actually strive to deter you from going the natural route, for obvious reasons considering they can’t swipe a healthcard for a service not covered by OHIP – there are no big-pharma kick-backs from nature herself and the concept of integrative medicine is to many modern day Physician, still regarded as new-agey nonsense. There was a wonderful article i read in the New York Times blog- about the search for meaning in modern medicine. Which deals with the very real subject of Dr’s apathy and detachment towards humanity. For a profession that initially was built on the value of human thriving and wholistic wellness- somewhere along the century’s path- medicine, like most else- became cold and corporatized. (* i should note that i do speak in generalizations, because while the majority are cold and calculating – i have seen amazing evolutions of traditional medical doctors making the move towards integrative medicine- impressive and brave attempts at giving momentum to a renaissance in modern medicine. you know who you are, and i thank you all. )

So- well aware of the state of the system-  i patiently continued along my path with western medicine, the reality is until OHIP recognizes so called ‘alternative healing’ and naturopathic practitioners as legitimate healing options, we are responsible for investing in these ‘alternatives’ ourselves; and god bless them they deserve what they earn and more- but many of us entrepreneurs do not have access or ability to afford the massive treatment bills (  and i’d rack ’em up if i could) –  accupuncture, herbalists, chinese medicine doctors and loads of other therapeutic healing treatments, i’d do it all. But until i forge my heartcentric empire, i have little choice but to utilize my basic health coverage; in this case- for testing purposes ( MRI’s and diagnostic ultrasounds and bloodwork and the like ) and on the side, do with what natural cures i have.  After months on end of waiting,  no closer to having an actual answer to the amenorrhea or the abdominal pain-  i nodded my head through my follow-ups, requested a second opinion and smiled patiently when the appointment for my second-opinion OBGYN came in. August. (bless canada healthcare) So i’d wait until August.

All the while focusing on my clean diet which every day moved towards being raw-vegan ( if only i could stop eating cheese ), and i continued to take my medical cannabis only this time we lowered the dose. For the next months until my follow up i would adhere to a maintenance dose, once every few days- maybe once a week, sometimes every other week even- conserving the magic medicine for anything pressing that might arise.  ( including an exciting skin&bodycare line we are developing )  When my late August appt. came ’round, since I had already pretty much decided that i wasn’t too interested in much of what any western medicine dr. would have to say, I had a specific intention in mind for what i wanted from this new Specialist- to get as many tests ordered as possible, do the full work up- any and every ultrasound- Basically anything that would put me closer to having a full scope understanding of what was going on in my body. So that i could then treat myself naturally according to the imbalances.

During my first appt. with this new Specialist, of course i also had to nod my way through her own opinion which yielded what the she described as a ‘presumptive diagnosis’ – ( which basically means she doesn’t know shit and is pulling something out of her educated ass- similar to what most western dr’s do…) She proclaimed with near utter certainty, that i was suffering from Asherman’s syndrome- which is basically an infertility sentence- but in reality a syndrome that occurs when you undergo a D&C either post-miscarriage or abortion. It happens when the Surgeon gets a little agressive with the suction or slippery with his tools and basically injures your insides, thus leaving scartissue that once healed up results in a variety of symptoms from fusion and closing off of the fallopian tubes to endometriosis to a slew of other not so nice side effects- some of which i was experiencing.

I was told it would be highly unlikely i would be able to bare children; and if this was indeed the case my only option remaining was to take the previous prescribed high level hormone dose to see if my body would essentially re-set itself, begin ovulating and produce mentruation… ( for what? ) Still unwilling to go this route i dug deeper to push my strategy. I could go for a Hysterosalpingogram which is basically a procedure wherein they shoot a specified amount of saline/dye solution into your reproductive system in order to generate an image that is easier to read, as the dye passes through the cervix, uterus and fallopian tubes. The pictures can show issues such as injury, damage or abnormal structure of the organs, or in severe cases- full blockage that would prevent an egg moving through the fallopian tubes into the uterus.  A resounding yes rang through the room as i agreed to challenge her ‘ presumptive diagnosis’ – and off i went with a requisition for more bloodwork to check hormone levels and a pending-date with an ultrasound machine.

1 more week passes, ( the six month mark since i began to dig into this issue ) …i receive the appointment date. All the while in my personal life i was dealing with the death of a loved one and the return of an ex with whom i had an abusive relationship- so my challenge heightened with a barrage of unexpected stress. Through memorial planning and mourning i made my way to the ultrasound appointment, which was a two part test. One half i would endure one week and a week later return for the second half. The latter being when the Dr. on hand explained to me, as she finished up injecting the dye and receiving the image on the tv screen beside me – everything looked clear. There was no sign of asherman’s. my fallopian tubes were fully open and according to my body- i could facilitate pregnancy at any time. Wow. A big sigh of relief swept through my entire body as i had actually begun to accept the notion that i might never bare children, which in my late teens and early 20’s wasn’t really on my radar- but through the experience of losing a child, i had gained the knowledge that i indeed wanted one. My follow-up appointment was 4 weeks from the time of this test, in between i got the bloodwork required of me and continued my healthy lifestyle, only this time i eased up nearly completely on the cannabis. Reserving what little was left for emergencies…

The followup was 3 days ago. Into her office i went, feeling certain and uncertain all at once, still not knowing what the truth was and i was definitely not expecting what was to come. The ultrasound results were perfect, my reproductive system had made a full recovery it seemed ( i was met with apathy as i shared with her the notion that i’d been treating myself naturally ) She smiled, though seemed confused that her ‘presumption’ had been incorrect and was ready to dismiss me until she opened the bloodwork results which confirmed high levels of prolactin. A breast exam in which she squeezed my nipples which resulted in a release of liquid, confirming that this bloodwork diagnosis was indeed affirmative, and from there she proceeded to explain the potential causes . Prolactin is a peptide-hormone produce by the pituitary gland, that fulfills a variety of functions including immune system regulation and in the case of pregnant women- it is the hormone that promotes lactation.  Why would an un-pregnant 32 year old woman who does not take pharma meds, nor have any diseases to speak of and is in pretty good physical condition have high prolactin levels? Well as it seems this can be caused by a variety of things- none of which i am a candidate for – except the most troublesome – a brain tumor. Pituitary to be exact. Not a word anyone really wants to hear in an otherwise seeming routine appointment.

There is alot of information out there regarding this type of tumor and interestingly a statistic said that nearly 1 in 1000 people out there have one. For the most part these tumors are benign and do not cause any issue although there are exceptions: – the other side of this can bring suffering in the way of infertility, menstrual issues, sickness, vision problems, and for those tumors that are malignant it can mean cancer with the potential to spread.  I was sent on my way after a series of questions from me resulted in little enlightenment from her. I suppose in her mind her work was now done. I was to get more blood taken, be passed off to an Endocrinologist, sent for an MRI and basically thrust back into the system yet again. So as i left the office, somewhat confused by the idea that i might actually be suffering from a brain tumor- i laughed. I laughed because in certain circumstances there is not much else that can be done. I laughed because i wasn’t quite ready to cry ( i’m still not ) I laughed at the utter hilarity of it all.. wondering silently could i have done anything differently, could i have prevented this from happening, is she really just full of shit? does she even know what she is suggesting is a possibility? I had no answers, and so i laughed. At the very least that laughter would be met with a sigh of relief once i arrived home and took another dose of oil.

So i had come full circle- from curing ‘cancer’ with cannabis, back to a seeming square one- where all is uncertain and without confirmation or negation – and i have only my own tools of empowerment to lead me as i wait patiently for yet another appointment to come. Interestingly after doing some research on the subject i have learned that according to some studies- marijuana actually has a significant effect on the prolactin levels in humans. All in all, a comedic irony- if at the end of it all – it comes down to the cure being the inadvertent instigator of the ‘disease.’

In the next weeks until i meet with the Endocrinologist to get her take, I will be documenting my experimental treatment to see if i can by way of holistic healing, beat my body to the proverbial punch.

update: 4 months have passed since my last update here and in that time i have been mostly in a waiting phase, i saw the so-called specialist @ women’s college hospital in Toronto who in effect sent me off on the same journey as all the other western medicine peeps tried to- a high level hormone diagnostic treatment. here is an update video:

update: April 2014, a full year has passed since i began this experiment, and as i continue my own journey, I have re-integrated a daily dose of plant medicine along with a high dose of vegan omegas. The question i am posing to both the plant and to myself i suppose is whether i am able to successfully regulate my hormones with this regimen. In addition to this i have been receiving much feedback from readers whom have connected with my story and have been in similar situations themselves, with little to no answers from western medicine, i continue to collect as much wisdom as possible and as a sidenote: I have been polishing this series for publication in various relevant magazines as well as considering its editing for a book on the topic. Continued feedback is honoured.

if you haven’t yet:  for those of you out there- whom in one way or another, have been effected by cancer- or any other destructive disease- i petition you to please take a look at the many many documentary films available out there- to educate you on the healing alternatives that exist. Primarily as related to cannabis as a cure- please watch any of these:






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feng shui your universe vol.1 – banish your baggage: relationship feng shui

Summer swept through our lives seeming so quickly up here in Canada and with it the whimsical notions of sun drenched adventures and days that never end…are out…
One of the most beautiful things in the world to me, is autumn in Ontario… everything alight with firey harvest glory and whilst springtime is typically the ubiquitous time of cleansing, detox, cleaning out closets and sweeping the dusty chambers of our consciousness- regardless of equinox or solstice, in every seasonal shift there is always a sense that we need to also shift our environments within and without; become mindful of any buried and/or burdening baggage, rid our universe of the things, people, circumstances which no longer serve highest level good, burn down the blockages that block the ability to flow with the moments that weave colourful experience into life.

Time for a good feng shui cleanse.
Those aspects of your life that are stagnant or simply sucking up valuable mindscape real estate? They gotta go; and never a better time than now, to evolve past who you were and recalibrate your reality into a vibrant and revitalized version of now.
One thing i have learned, is that often by the time peeps begin to feel the weight of excess baggage in their lives- it may already have caused much un-realized damage that needs repair and replenishing. So ever-important is the necessity of being mindful of what makes up our proverbial (and literal ‘houses’)  … audit the feng shui of our soul – assess what it is we carry around, year after year, day-to-day, to determine what needs to take a serious hike, the hell out of our lives.

Mindful or not, the reality is that the excess crap in our lives, looks for a place to hide… it seeks out  weak spots within and without us, like a compromised immune system, vulnerable to disease- the clutter and the baggage finds a way to cling…this comes in many forms, unhealthy relationships, excess material nonsense that overflows our homes, obsessive thought-loops that fester anxiety and blockages, old love letters, photos, clothes that no longer fit, the shit that we own, very much ends up owning us- and the relationships we keep define our character. So in the overall picture of optimal wellness- it is essential to sit with yourself, take stock of your universe, and to formulate a plan to feng shui it- into alignment.

For me there is a strategy and a methodology that helps to cultivate balance and shed the shit that no longer serves; a finely tuned skill-set incorporating the concept of feng shui; That ancient system of order that allows for optimal flow of energy within the world(s) we live in; and inspired by the principles i’ve curated my own ‘cleansing’ an interpretation for detox and re-order.

I have applied sacred logic to the lay of the land within, and in my ‘house’ it is more than simple (re)placement or symbolic (re)decoration, but a dynamic way of rebirthing, re-organizing and replenishing all that composes my existence.
( disclaimer: those whom are serious into the system of feng shui, consider some of this conceptual and loosely used, bound to no pre-conception, held to no expectation except a theoretical inspiration for which to plot thriving. )


Having a deep seated desire to live a minimalist life, carries with it the need to continuously be consciously-choosing the hows, whos and whys, prioritizing both the expending of energy and the space i allot for all ‘things’ in my world. The most sticky of all shui- is the art of human relationship, the most difficult things to release, re-calibrate or re-constitute, are the relationships, the people we know and the love that we give and the emotional connections that contribute to the vast woven quilt of our very being itself.. Sometimes the relationships are living, breathing people and sometimes it’s relationship to self, how we relate to our emotions or connect to past situations – indeed sometimes this baggage is about all about healing the memory. Recalibrating our connection to source, by ridding residual ‘shit’.
Understanding the intricate dynamics of connection and relation is something that has required the highest level of practice, sensitivity, courage and confidence. All of my life, I have been a magnet for emotional vampires. I’ve been an enabler to addicts and a co-dependant to destruction, witnessed more turmoil and cut more people off,  by the time i was 20, than most do in a lifetime on earth… and from my own history-book of perceived errors- i have a lot to offer to those who are unsure how to proceed in this aspect of the cleanse.

I’ve been in relationships that have been riddled with abuse, relationships where i gave past the point of exhaustion, relationships that mirrored my own masochism and fear, relationships that went on for years after their best before date, that in themselves bred so many levels, layers, compartmentalized suffering and life-blocking baggage- sometimes i lost myself, forgot the essence of real love, the feeling and the understanding of what a healthy connection felt like. Lost the perspective of what a healthy universe looked like…But the massive growth that took place within even as i smothered it by hoarding hurt and fostering the wrong things, and appeasing the beast that created destruction- was un-rivalled. Without the dark days and the repressed emotional injury and the buried baggage within me- i would need to unearth, i never would have stepped into the light of understanding, with real wisdom to share around the art of feng shui, as a tool for healing; As related to relationships it’s a delicate circumstance but like all the other ’stuff’ it is essentially the same- it requires forgiveness and release and an ultimate understanding of why it festered and blocked up and why you buried and carried, it- and once that perspective becomes evident it becomes easy to leave behind.
For me- those days are gone and though the work never ends, i have fought long and hard for the wisdom i have earned as related to relationship release and detox.

Sometimes i face this shit head on by straight-up telling peeps they are getting the boot, sometimes in certain situations it is more important to simply allow the gentle release of people who no longer fit into the larger picture wellbeing of your world- than to strive to repair any damage or disorder.  Over the last 6 months or so, i have released more people than ever in a shorter time-span, many of them former clients, whom were no longer mirroring integrity that i demand in my relationships, or whom were moving away from a system of values that complemented my own. This portion of my feng shui system is never easy as it involves the emotions of others coupled with much courage to admit to yourself the failure that comes with accepting the truth. If the circumstance is toxic it can shapeshift and hide and appear incognito under the guise of goodwill.

We are taught that relationships are a lot of work and that notion is true- however we are not taught, through societal representation and historical documentation-  the right time to give up and say goodbye. Assessing this is something so deeply personal, dependant on a plethora of perceptions working to achieve the same goal. The ultimate health and value of a relationship can mean the difference between a thriving life, and a life repressed and drowning in excess.
There is no solid system for determining how and when is the right time to release, however when you endeavour to do so, i would offer the same advice as i adhere to in my own journey- and that is to make both objective and subjective determinations based on whether this relationship, at its core and essence- inspires you to be a better person.
Do your core values align?
Do you share the same ideals, ethics, philosophies, beliefs and both adhere to them, Does your connection kindle the fire of self mastery- to ascend?
Does it provide good energy ‘behind your back’ – ( good ‘backing’ – in traditional fen shui  is defined by strong, supportive, protective energy )
or is the backing bad, blocked with sha chi and riddled with negative chatter, false loyalty and ‘poison arrows’ or sharp right-angled corners that deceive, deflect your good intentions and deplete your vital forces?
Do you offer the same level of love and selfless giving that is required of any truly healthy connection?
Do you spend more time arguing or ‘working on the relationship’ than you do enjoying one another’s presence? Does that presence fill you with light or with darkness?
Are you truly in one another’s corner? and your ‘relationship corner’ brightly lit with unconditional support, or is it riddled with mirrors reflecting negative aspects of self?
Does this relationship leave you feeling as if you are truly kindred and not only understood but honoured for your unique and wonderful ways?
What is the single most important reason to foster that connection? Is it Selfish? Selfless? Suffersome?
These are some of the things i would advise to consider when tackling the task of ’people’ on your detox plan.

The main reason peeps do end up carrying alot of physical baggage is inextricably linked with emotional suffering. Incidents of pain and heartbreak can create a space within us that we then will seek to fill with much useless shit.
( indeed there are many people in this world who have fundamental emptiness, and not emptiness as related to enlightenment but emptiness as related to ‘lack’..however that is a personal challenge and not always one that is triggered by relationships, the emptiness of lack is one born of confusion and an error in understanding of what the meaning of true wealth is, and it’s more one of a sad state of self-deprecation, ignorance or pride ) Me, i value emptiness- raw space to simply be. It’s point zero for all things and wherein all things align.

Banishing Baggage:

Turning emotional baggage into literal baggage is an easy feat for those who are unsure how to heal, consumer-driven culture sponsors retail therapy, and we donate to its cause, marketing pits us against ourselves in the battle to align, to become conscious and develop the conscience that will drive us to a minimal life- where simplicity is the only ethos and breathing is wisest guide. All of this is the very reason you see television programs such as ‘hoarders’, endless solutions for storage space and a host of programming that celebrates getting more of it- to stockpile shit and clog your chi and develop advanced compulsions around the concept of ‘more’, a sickness that sees peeps making millions in the business of ‘organization’ – and props to them for taking on the challenge to guide others in the difficult task of freeing themselves; while not all peeps are so extreme obviously, we are all colourfully unique in our shades of self and suffering and each individual requires special consideration and a carefully laid plan to tackle their own cleansing and offered here are some tips to launch your detox:

here is a simple 7 step plan to inspire your progress:

( consequently and serendipitously post writing this, i discovered the number 7 in fen shui is related to represents solitude, inner wisdom, contemplation, sanctuary, dreams, visions; universally of course we associate it with luck) 

step one: defining the sacred to weed out the toxic. in a world of excess: take stock of what is important to your wellness by process of elimination
– make a gratitude journal, there is so much to be appreciated in life that i could fill a thousand pages a day with the wonders of the world; however, important is deliberate detailing of your own unique appreciation, learning to harness and wield gratitude in your life is an irreplaceable, powerful weapon to add to your Nourished Warrior arsenal.
This elemental step in the many-part plot to feng shui your universe, is crucial to the overall journey, so consider everything in your journaling, that adds value and thanks to your life.

engaging your proverbial lo-pan ( lo-pan = a feng shui compass that is used to define the bagua or energy map of a home )
In this case we are pointing this proverbial compass at the relationship corner of our ‘houses’, in feng shui terms this is the furthest right room, consequently engaging our right-brain to craft this list engages right brain energies- intuition and ‘ the (w)holistic view of things.

-Start by meditating on your life at an overall, consider all the things that create the mosaic of your world and make determined and specific notations of each and every thing you are grateful for, a deeply reflective process that carries so much underrated reward.

-Strive for 40 items per day- If you are struggling through the process, worry not – the list will create itself once you ignite the power of intention.

-Do this every day for 40 days, 40 is the magic number, while you are engaging in your feng shui cleanse.

( although in feng shui 4 can represent stability and groundedness, death or transformation, 40 of course is significant in a host of spiritual tradition, 0=first cause; manifesting into existence from the unmanifest void, 4-cycles of the natural world; 4 elements; body-mind-spirit-soul, 40 days-time to bring a vision into existence, 40 represents order, harmony and systems, 40 days = symbolic, a benchmark for transformation- the death of oneself and the rebirth alike. According to a french astrologer, “it is the achievement of a cycle in the world, the rhythm of the cyclic repetitions in the Universe”. )

Deliberate determination of all of the things for which you are grateful will allow prioritization of what is truly important. It’s a multi-tasking method for taking stock of the stuff in your life, that will bring clarity to the shit that deserves to stay and the ‘stuff’ that needs to be banished.

step two: make a shit list

anything conspicuously missing several days in a row from your gratitude glossary, needs to be identified and put into a pile.

tip: when you think you are done doing cleaning duty, cross reference to ensure there are not lagging ‘items’ that need to be flushed.

step three: those items ( relations/associations/connections/people) that make it into the baggage pile, make sure you have clearly identified them, and why it is they belong in the proverbial shitter.

Be honest with yourself; otherwise- this whole exercise is useless. But also be gentle with yourself as you may be particularly vulnerable right about now and it’s important to nurture yourself through this process, be a fierce warrior- yes, but don’t forget about pausing to reflect as you write your intentions to release.

It may require some clarity around what belongs here in the shit pile. More than a simple process of elimination of what you are not consistently grateful for- but indeed a full-scale inventory of the mind, heart and soul. Inclusive of your relationships to self, to suffering, to each aspect of living that connects us in the world.

In addition to toxic people, we very often support toxic relationships to self and to aspects of our life. For example, one of the associations i chose for my shit list, was my relationship to money. Specifically as it relates to my own value. By cleansing my relationship to money- i in turn allow for easeful abundance in my life. Other peeps may require cleansing of their relationship to responsibility, to failure, to success, to food or to source itself.

Connections very often have deeper rooted issues behind them, and thus sometimes what seems as if it is our relationship to success for example, that is toxic. It actually is a fear of failure- and thus our relationship to fear of failure. The same applies across the board in the interconnected quilt of our lives – my relationship to money may be toxic, but perhaps underneath that, is my relationship to self worth- and thus it is that association that needs cleansing.

Coming at this from another perspective – there is a lot to be considered in the arena of partnerships. Those people who have had serial relationship issues, may very well need to cleanse many aspects of their approach and their stance on love. For example, a woman creating her relationship shit list has included her penchant for ‘bad boys’ for cheaters or comittment-phobes. It’s great to burn up this blockage, but at the same time mindful consideration of what is behind these patterns is essential. As related to specific ‘types’ of romantic relationships my advice is: Seek the root of what attracts you to those types of men- ( hint: it’s often your own counterpoint in some measure ) and include that on your shit-list. ie: comittment-phobes= insecurity/relationship to self image / cheaters = relationship to trust / self worth issues / Bad boys = relationship to your own sense of rebellion and security.

The second part of the third step requires some introspection. Meditate on the shit list you’ve compiled and determine if you have accurately identified each core issue /relationship. Please remember very often fundamental emotional issues or habits and addictions are personified when you are in an unhealthy love relationship- and therefore carefully consider you aren’t presuming too much toxicity when in fact – once you leave that toxic or abusive relationship much of your relationship to self and to life will begin to heal on its own.

If any of the connections are especially harmful they may require additional detox in order for you to fully be liberated from them, however the third step is simply identifying the shit pile and preparing to flush it.
tip: it may seem harsh to consider ‘people’, connections and relationships ‘shit that needs flushing’ but if you have been taking stock of your ‘whys’ and the reality of these relationships as related to your overall wellness, this feeling should disappear quite quickly.
If you need an affirmation in order to make it through making this list- try this:

“I only have space in my life for healthy, positive, mutually supportive connections that inspire me to thrive.”

step four: Take that shit list and burn it.

You can make this either ritualistic, ceremonial or you can simply read your list and release it.

To add a bit of auspiciousness and symbolic empowerment to this action, you can stand facing south, tie a red thread ’round your list before you quite literally, light it up. ( red thread is an auspicious and sacred symbol, used as a tool of protection for centuries; thought to have supernatural powers, which protect, bring blessings, good fortune, love and abundance and aid in manifesting destiny. )

The thing about fire, is that it cannot be stored. It must be created in order to destroy and thus is its primordial power to achieve the release.
In feng shui fire represents regret from loss of love, and disappointment in relationships.

Take that shit list and burn it.

Yep. watch it smoke and flame and feel the release from all of the suffering that you have been carrying… the weight that is lifted.
Once you have burned this, you can scatter the ashes somewhere beautiful or simply add the fact that you have been liberated from your baggage to your daily gratitude journal.
Keeping this perpetually in mind, and expressing continual gratitude for your ability to release that which no longer serves you will protect and empower your capacities for carrying no further baggage on your journey.

step five (bonus option) a prayer to release baggage.

If there were particularly stubborn items/connections/circumstances and relations on that shit list, that require a more potent prescription for relief,
What you may wish to do is say the ‘ Ho’oponopono’ mantra on them. I first learned this from a Mayan Shaman my first time in Tulum.  ( of course i realize that many modern spiritual ‘teachers’ have incorporated this concept into their teachings as well. ) Maria the Shaman prescribed this ancient hawaiian mantra as a daily meditation,  used to cut old ties, patterns of behaviour, residual energy from past relationships, as a way to move forward and manifest new love.
My interpretation: it is a prayer to release baggage.

visualize: what it is, who it is, where it is that needs cleansing, renewal, release.
a pair of scissors in your left hand and a torch in the other…
…see yourself cutting the ties with the left, applying fire with the right.

Hold your visualization in your awareness while you speak the Ho’oponopono mantra
“I am sorry
forgive me
I love you
and I thank you”
im sorry. forgive me. i love you. thank you. im sorry forgive me. i love you. thank you.
say this, once a day, for 40 days. @ the end of your 40 days, the energetic residue ought to be entirely cleansed. Leaving only new space for positive growth.

zenwarrior affirmations

You may wish to also add affirmations ( which is a volume of this feng shui series, unto itself ) to empower each step of your process- there are so many powerful ones out there- and you can of course create your own.

But if you are seeking something simple, straightforward and superpowerful, supercharged with goodness and light : I offer as a gift to you, the Zen Warrior Affirmations app,
an alchemy of energetic alignment, and warrior-wisdom developed to deliver you the right words – at the right time.

a tool of empowerment conspired to fuel your thriving.


step six: find a replacement connection – with yourself.

They say it takes 40 days to break a habit, detox from an addiction, or change a pattern of behaviour  and while this is no 12 step program, the sixth step is just as important as the first through fifth, In order to heal from unhealthy patterns of behaviour or rid yourself of a habit or relationship you no longer wish to engage with- it often helps to replace that ‘thing’ with another ( more healthy ) ‘thing’ unfortunately in love and relationships, many times this results in ‘rebound relationships’ and that is most certainly not what i am suggesting, however the concept is empowering- so i suggest finding a replacement connection. With yourself. Whatever it was that was keeping you tied to that previous toxic circumstance was rooted in a need deep inside you, getting in touch with that need and actualizing its presence by recognizing how it has shaped the path you may have taken is key to keeping the toxic pattern broken and collecting no further baggage by burying it within.

My hope is that you identify this ‘thing’ within, that has driven you to collect shit for your shit list and set your intentions on healing it.


Seal your liberation by setting new intentions for yourself. Replacing old, worn out shit, with shiny, healthy inspirational new shit-is the key to maintaining the healthy balance that is brought back into your life by the act of feng shui. Intention based healing is something I have been working with for several years and each time i am striving to manifest something, each time i wish to make a promise to myself or set a goal or even remind myself of important values i wish to harness or harvest- i tie on an intention bracelet. This is something that is part of my ritual, doesn’t have to be a part of yours, however should you choose to realize or symbolize your intention setting in a physical way- with something that will remind you of your promise to yourself, or your shiny new way of being, or to celebrate your ability to fengshui out your relationship baggage. click here.

step 7: Compiling a book of ‘lessons learned’  

Realistically, relationship detox isn’t  always as simple as a six step process that includes burning a piece of paper, saying a few prayers and tying on some string. There are real emotional issues that often come alongside the cessation of any connection. It is incredibly important to honor the process of this, and like any passing- allow yourself to grieve… nourish yourself as you Warrior through that process and feel no shame about mourning the connections that you are severing for greater good. As important as freeing yourself from the baggage of an unhealthy relationship, is taking time to reflect on what the relationship taught you. What lessons it brought with it to enrich your life by the light of, and what was it that was mirrored in that ( or those ) connections, as every relationship acts mirror to something. Compiling a ‘lessons learned’ book of sorts by which you can document the outcome of each growth experience- can be an incredibly rewarding and empowering experience in addition to the wisdom it imparts to our hearts. Just a simple experience bible by which to document each important relationship in your life, and what lessons have been harvested or what truths have been reflected by the reality of that connection in your life. Once you have identified what it was that you were meant to learn from something you are freed from the often torturous sense of wondering what went wrong, why it failed, or wtf you were thinking- because that shit no longer matters. The wisdom has been taught to your heart regardless of whether the conscious mind has caught up, and crafting your list of lessons is not only deeply honouring to each relationship, but it honors your own heart and grants it liberation from the feelings of failure or guilt, transforming each and every relationship experience into something to add to your gratitude glossary.

Because in the end, what we take with us is not always baggage.

-muchos bendiciones,


end vol l. to be continued with volume ll of ‘feng shui your universe ‘  an 8 part series 

anyone with feedback on this series or requiring intuitive guidance around the art of feng shui in relationships can connect with me, i am happy to help guide you in any way you need.

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My Medical Marijuana Journey; an experiment: volume four

Today is the day, April 9th came around pretty quickly, and in all honesty that last – less than month of my life, feels a little like a whirlwind of emotion, empowerment and interesting physical changes… having been treating myself since the 16th of March, i have come to enjoy cannabis oil as a part of my daily supplement regime and not only did i receive some incredibly encouraging ultrasound results- but i have noticed a plethora of other ‘side-effects’ of this particular plan of plant-based action… my skin is better, my hair looks healthier, i am sleeping, for the first time in years- at a decent hour and getting a consistent amount of rest and i have noticed that i seem to be also losing a bit of weight- there aint that much excess to lose, in reality- however i am cool with a few extra pounds dropping off. Spiritually as well,  i have most certainly felt the side effects of introducing CBD-rich cannabis into my diet. For one thing, i have seen a whole other level of truth seem to just blow wide open. I have always known that in the larger sense, society is outta wack. We live in a controlled environment, with constant barrages of information being both consciously and subconsciously implanted into our psyches. However, since the 16th of March, consequently when i began the medical cannabis journey- i also received a quantum pendant in the mail, so perhaps a combination of scalar and hemp energy is causing higher planes of knowledge to unfold in front of me… I have learned in the last weeks, some disturbing levels of truth- with regards to how our culture is very carefully crafted by those in omnipresent positions of power, how we are a culture fed dis-information, and consistently taught how to obey, how to alienate and how to break down the foundations of our humanity. Ego is celebrated, unity is disregarded and destroyed by the notion that we live in a world where its all about looking out for #1, it’s all about competition, being numero uno in class… all of that truth aside what it seems to come down to is harnessing our own power. Taking matters into our own hands and exercising the free will we were given in this life… and for me- that has meant challenging the system, challenging what Western Medicine has told me, and looking for a better way, a more healthy way, the way less travelled.

I made it to the Dr’s office a few minutes before my appointment, and i waited patiently amidst a room full of children and mothers – interestingly enough this really inspired in me a mental and emotional re-iteration of the fact that, wow- i really do want to have my own children one day and so this journey has become about something bigger than just my potential ‘disease’- it has become about preserving my ability to exercise the miracle of procreation… The Dr’s appt. went just as i thought it might, i waited in the check-up room, the computer screen happened to be open- and of course i could not contain my curiosity and sneaked a peek at the lab results- of which i have posted a picture here.



here’s a basic overview of how it went down:

– he opened the reports and lab results, he said he could not find anything-everything looked clear and good. He seemed to be baffled by the ultrasound, and spent most of the appointment with a very weird look on his face…..Then he proceeded to do another internal exam and was baffled by the fact that the giant mass which previously was subject of such worry- seemed to be completely, and entirely, GONE. …Albeit encouraged, he was a little pissed that i did not take the hormones, ( because despite the (unbeknownst to him ) fact that we seem to have cured “cancerous growths” with medical cannabis he still doesn’t know why i don’t have a period.) His solution was something to the effect of ingesting the high level hormones  immediately and then returning for a potential permanent prescription of the same. ( the jist of logic being – if i want to ever have kids- i better. )

At an overall his bedside manner left much to be desired… as i quizzed him on the supposed PCOS diagnosis, “exactly how do you suppose i have PCOS- when the ultrasound showed nothing??? ” He did not have an answer- ” Well, i don’t know, but i know you have it, despite your healthy BMI, etc. etc. ” … he then gives pause- a pause that was filled with the energy of seeking for something.. and says, as he looks up at my forehead, making a gesture on his own ” Oh, well i see a bit of acne there!”/// A little in shock, i responded yes- i have been working out more intensely”… Ultimately that comment was completely un-necessary, nothing more than trying to justify mal-diagnosis by pointing out three tiny blemishes on my forehead and passing them off as symptomatic justification that i actually have a disease, that he seems to want me to have!

The long and short of it is, that he had no explanation at all for why he used the words cancer- etc. with me last time, and now i am showing no signs at all of it.
the reality is that i have cured it. Medical cannabis has done its duty in a shorter timeframe than expected and while there are many things still up in the air, and unanswered the ‘un-identified mass’ has been destroyed by the plant medicine.

I did not tell him about my alternative treatment regimen he did not seem open to it, ( or anything for that matter ) so i left that part out, simply all the while acting relieved and surprised that my body had done its own mending…i asked him for copies of the reports, and left with a requisition for more blood work, a strict order to ” take the hormone pills” and a feeling of alleviation, accomplishment and awe.
i will get the blood work done, get copies of it- and get a second opinion elsewhere to be sure of everything because there is still no logic for why my abdomen seems to be in consistent pain ( though lessened with the hemp oil )… and i have no menstruation.
but at an overall, the most amazing part of this story- is that we seem to have, in a very short time- rehabilitated my reproductive system.

For those still in doubt, i have posted a video update of my results as well, just to give you a closer look at the sincerity that i am striving to present all of this with. I have no ulterior motives here, i am not trying to discredit nor advocate any alternative treatment over another.. all in all this series has been about my own personal journey to healing with medicinal cannabis and along the way, i have been documenting my results, allowing the plant to do its work within me, and doing my best to facilitate a healthy temple for healing… i intend also to share a brief overview of all of the tools i have incorporated into my healing regimen… the main tool of course being the cannabis itself- however there are many other lifestyle based things that i also do, on a daily basis that i do believe has only added to the plant’s ability to do its work within me.

for those interested in what a day in my life looks like in terms of my activities wellness, i will be posting very shortly- an overview of that. Along with a series that is devoted to Nourished Warrior wellness plans, these will include meal plans, food education and tips, exercise tips, and a whole bunch of other wholistic – minded goodness. Eventually we will be launching a service for those whom are interested in adopting a Nourished Warrior wellness and lifestyle plan, but for now- its all about sharing the wisdom that we have, on wellness- and the exciting experimental successes that have brought me from cancer to cure in less than 30 days.  In the next twelve months i will be moving from a regular cannabis treatment to a whole food clean diet, and upon the way documenting my progress…with updates to come as i make my way through the next series of specialists.

in the meantime, for those of you out there- whom in one way or another, have been effected by cancer- or any other destructive disease- i petition you to please take a look at the many many documentary films available out there- to educate you on the healing alternatives that exist. Primarily as related to cannabis as a cure- please watch any of these:

read volume five

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Exploration, Discovery & Healing @ the Total Health Show 2013

On a lovely spring afternoon in Toronto, had the good fortune to spend it exploring the Total Health Show @ the Toronto convention centre- which is run by a not for profit and is an annual event that celebrates the holistic world and the plethora of mostly under the radar wisdom and wonder cultivated by all of us fellow brave healthy entrepreneurs, Dr’s, Scientists and practitioners… there is to be a farmer’s market, where we will stop for some early-day nourishment, a vendor-space where hopefully we will discover some interesting and innovative developments in the holistic-sphere. We decided against a table at this event for our intention-based jewelery company – enerCHI as in the last few years we have been focused more on the custom-wear aspect of the business than the craft=show- direct to consumer/mass- way of marketing. ) having said that there is some real excitement brewing around what potential gems we might find along our journey. Apologies it never came to fruition, but i was hoping to be able to video some of the proceedings, specifically some of the lecture series that features a variety of experts in a diverse manner of areas- specifically we are planning to be present for Nick Begich‘s seminar on HAARP ( for those of you who are not party to the realities of HAARP- it’s a pretty terrifying ongoing program run by the same peeps who are responsible for CHEMTRAILS… HAARP is short for The High Frequency Active Auroral Research Program (HAARP) and is an ionospheric research program jointly funded by the U.S. Air Force, the U.S. Navy, among other questionable cohorts. It’s a pretty scary proposition and while technically it is described: ”  its purpose is to analyze the ionosphere and investigate the potential for developing ionospheric enhancement technology for radio communications and surveillance. “ at an overall the truth is more deeply disturbing, and for those brave enough to step into the know i would suggest checking Nick’s documentary film ‘ Angels don’t play this HAARP’

Based on his best selling book, Dr. Nick Begich presents a compelling discussion of one of the important military advances of the United States government….digging even deeper into the truth behind HAARP will certainly lead you to a different view of the northern lights…check out: – Though we did not make it to the show in time to enjoy Nick’s wisdom, we are well acquainted with his work and highly recco. educating yourself as to the reality he presents within it.

Another terrifying yet enlightening experience in our day – was a film screening of Genetic Roulette

a real wake up call as to just how deep the corruption of our food chain truly is… unveiling a world most of us have never seen: exposing the bullying & deceit of the biotech industry, some of many of Monsanto’s strong arm tactics, the FDA’s fraudulent policies, & how the USDA adamantly ignores a growing health emergency- Jeffrey Smith’s mesmerizing film shines a bright light of hope that we can reclaim our health and our food systems
Watch it & be galvanized, inspired, and engaged.

post Total Health Show show roundup:

total health show

After gratefully being granted media passes on behalf of Ecocentric Guide, we took to exploring the holistic wellness space, that was the Total Health Show– there were exhibitors from every corner of the conscious business sphere it seemed, a holistic heaven for LOHAS lovers and local wellness-junkies alike. We started by mingling with some of the vendors whom were showcasing products that were most aligned with our mission for the day: which was to discover some new tools to implement into our healing experiment, or to obtain some treatments that would empower our current regime. We wandered past the booth taking “Auric Photography” capturing your energetic image by way of digital camera ( though i had to wonder how much of this can be enhanced in photoshop )… tasting our way through a plethora of gourmet…gluten free, vegan and raw food deliciousness- chemical free crackers, cookies and cakes– washing it down with Coconut water as we happily nourished our curiosity and hunger for some free and tasty healing.

Gisela + crew were representing Natural, giving away some sweet baskets full of goodies- alongside promoting their Bliss Passes, which offer incentives for ethical shopping across the country via rewards, discounts and other freebies. Of course a pioneer in eco-media, I am Always an advocate for peeps puttin’ out just another reason to support the sustainable business. She gifted us a lovely calendar, featuring gorgeous cultural paintings by local Artist, Sheena Singh and it serves to be said, despite our app-controlled lives- there is something old-school irreplaceable about taking pen to paper, to pencil in your plans.

acupunctureThe first exciting stop we made was at a booth, where a lovely Asian man named Dr. Howard, who was a practicing medical doctor in china for 20 years, was sharing his newest innovation and invention ” needle-less accupuncture” The product itself is an innovation in this modality as it offers a portable system by which to heal- ‘ The Health Recovery Chips’ – are a unique kit that includes all that is needed to administer a safe and needle-free form of accupuncture. What was being showcased was one of the 5 different kits available for purchase – Dr. Howard was offering sample 2 minute treatments for free- and various other opportunities for experiencing this modality- the top level treatment available was around $50 for a full 20 minutes, (  luckily our media passes granted us what seemed to be an extra measure of kindness and generosity throughout the day), and we were treated to a full-length treatment which was interesting to stay the least. The Health Recovery Chip Wellness and Vitality System’ – is what was being used for this particular treatment- ( the kit itself; included 5 stones nestled in a platter, 1 jade pressure point wand, tape, 1 bottle of Surface Liquid, tape for the stones to be affixed to the skin )  Accupuncture itself has only really been garnering the respect it deserves and gaining the popularity it needs to flourish and effect higher level healing, in the last 10 years. With a large Asian poplulation in Toronto, the opportunity to experience experts in this modality, is vast in this city. Typically acupuncture is administered via a strategically placed series of special needles, deliberately placed upon different points in the body- according to the individual’s unique energy flow ( or lack thereof ) and particular blockages. The end goal- is to unleash, un-hinder and promote the healthy flow of energy/CHI throughout the body- by balancing the meridians. Advocates for this healing practice will tell you- its ability to cure illness, is remarkable, often inexplicable considering there is no prescription for pills or pass off to big-pharma involved in this exchange. Practitioners of accupuncture are deeply knowledgeable on how the life force runs, not only through the body but through the universe itself, after all we are all part of the same mass of energy.) Here is a unique chart provided by the Shennon Group…

So taking this energetic knowledge as the axis point of this healing practice- it only makes sense that all you would really need to administer this art, is a skillfull understanding of the meridian points, an intuitive knowledge of the body and some tools by which to place upon the physical body- to draw, generate and move the energy itself- thus Needle-less Acupuncture, makes sense from an overall perspective. Dr. Howard was using his own invention, something never before seen in this field ( at least we had never seen it ! ) He had crafted a kit which included 6 hexagonal stones. Each engraved with a symbol, each the same size, colour and shape. Prior to treatment we were asked whether we had any problem areas or pain, My brother had 3 stones placed upon points in his spine, and i watched as Dr. Howard gingerly taped all full five stones- across my bare abdomen, sharing with me that ” The higher my tolerance, the hotter they would get” Tolerance in this case, means not your tolerance for pain, but the energetic level of the pain itself. Seeing as i have been – albeit recently decreasing, regularly experiencing abdominal pain, i excitedly obliged this rather odd seeming practice of placing shapes upon my stomach as i sat amidst a crowd of hundreds wandering by… While the stones themselves went to work – we got an interesting briefing on the history of the stones- while they were brown in colour- they were in fact, mostly made of Jade ( one of our favourite crystals/gemstones to work with when crafting our own healing tools ) So we were happy to learn that someone else was harnessing its healing properties to work on the energy within the body.

Jade is one of the most revered stones throughout history- often being referred to as a stone of wisdom, protection and purity- it also works to protect its wearer from harm-& foster harmony and alignment of the chakras. It has a profound ability to promote emotional release, especially of any sense of anger, irritability or negativity ( all emotions that would create blockage and discord within the meridian system ) On a physical level, jade supports the body’s filtration and elimination process, removing toxins, especially from the kidney and adrenal glands, balancing bodily fluids, and rebinding cellular systems on a deep foundational level.

Dr. Howard has been practicing chinese medicine in Toronto for 15 years, and he has just recently developed this new innovation in Acupuncture, offering an ancient modality a modern-esque twist on delivery, by integrating the profound healing properties of natural stone with the targeted energy centres that make up the unique matrix of Qi that sustains our physical bodies in this reality. The stones, Howard said would begin to feel hot, or rather your body would begin to feel increasingly h0t- as the stones pulled the energy from your pain body out. The physics of this experience was nothing short of fascinating as the stones themselves, just as Howard said they would- remained completely and utterly cold to the touch, yet under the taped hexagonal jade, our bodies began to burn… it started out as a warm sensation similar to placing a heating pad on the skin in targeted areas, and it began to build rather rapidly over the twenty minute period, eventually becoming akin to the sensation of rubbing on all too much A-535, vicks vapo rub or some other analgesic balm that causes your skin to burn. My brother lasted about 10 of the 20 minutes before needing to have the stones removed, his pain body quite large from years of chronic suffering- the heat below the treatment tools became too much to bare. I lifted my shirt and stared fascinatedly at my bare abdomen as it began to burn as well, similar to the feeling of being scalded by a hot iron brand, i imagine as i have never experienced that manner of burning, the sensation equates with that in my mind. Upon removal we were told that the burning sensation would continue for at least ten more minutes as the energy continued dispersing, providing healing to our overall auric field, our physical bodies and alignment in our meridians that- for both of us, was lacking due to illness, imbalance and pain. We walked away with smiles and sensation that we had just undergone something far more profound than we had realized, wondering if the burning itself was in fact a distraction from the underlying pain, not actually lessening it, but providing some ulterior measure of focus for the conscious mind to busy itself with… But indeed, just as Howard said, the pain itself had subsided, considerably and though the burning continued ( along with 5 growing red blotches on my tummy that looked like an allergic reaction ) all of that was but a small side effect- to a much larger measure of healing that took place at booth # ( ill insert booth here when i remember ) For those practitioners out there who are looking to add another level of integrative medicine to their clinics, or for individuals who have the investment dollars to acquire one of these Healing Kits- i would strongly recco. going in for a treatment, experiencing this amazing modality- live- and then making the investment to nourish your nature- by adding this to your arsenal.


Next on our journey we stopped in the centrepoint of this vast holistic- healing-wonderland, the wafting scent of artisanal food overtook our senses and the hunger for some nourishment gave us pause- at the food vendors. After taking stock of our options, we decided upon fueling ourselves- with arguably the best bit of cuisine available under the roof of the convention centre that day… In 2009 Ecocentric Guide discovered a wee little chocolate operation, at a Farmers market- a pedal powered-band of chocolatiers- that biked it’s baked goods and artisan chocolate around the city of Toronto, for years- delivering raw chocolate goodness to the sweet toothed masses… Those in the know, know that cacao has incredible healing properties in itself, the food of the gods, it was considered by many an ancient culture, especially Aztec and Mayan, which this ingenious Toronto operation- has based its business model around, ChocoSol, is a horizontal trading organization participating in trading networks that support economic production and growers in Mexico, as well as other regions (including local farmers). ( Another aspect of horizontal trade is passing on the best prices to networks, artisans and customers that show solidarity. ) Partnering with Suppliers in Oaxaca, Mexico, has enabled ChocoSol to bring the raw chocolate goodness for coming up on 5 years. This year it seems, they have rebranded, reinvented and are delivering an updated and expanded menu of Home-cooked delights. The lovely chefs, were hand=pressing organic purple corn grain into masa, and then hand-pressing it into vegan and gluten free tortillas, which were the base for some of the most amazing quesadilla creations- ever to grace the lips of a Nourished Warrior. Just, pure yum.

Picture 12Overall Nourished Warrior ‘Arms factor’: 9.5

vrajaBellies full and hunger satiated, we thirstily made our way to each and every one of the Alkaline and ionized and otherwise enhanced water vendors- tasting the purity and empowered hydration offered by advancements in an ancient industry- water.  At the show that day, there was one table generously giving out free bottled water and we hunted it down like clue-finders in the amazing race to quench our thirst, at one point stopping to ask someone where they had retrieved their bottle- her answer being ” off yonder… follow your intuition”… and so we did, making our way to the back corner of the room- never finding the water, but instead intuitively stumbling upon something else much more intriguing… living Buddhas in our midst, the Nuns representing the ‘Buddha Maitreya’ brought Shambhala Healing Tools of sacred geometric meditation, healing meditation tools & music – their space was filled with crystal and giant copper pyramids, set up as an interactive experience. Chairs strategically placed around a copper pyramid, each with its own headset- resonating deeply meditative music, as you were told to sit, holding two ‘ Earth Etheric Weavers® ,or  Vajra Etheric Weavers,  – each about 2″ x 2″ x 20″ featuring long double terminated, symmetrical laboratory grown pure quartz to  provide a photon light source, neodymium rare earth magnets placed in the center of each crystal, exciting the photon light and being channeled by copper wire, which was wrapped around each crystal to “radiate out the light like a radio transmitter. Each wand also said to have radiated ‘the blessings of Buddha Maitreya,” According to the Nuns, The Etheric weavers are to be used by holding in the hand as a pendulum, it is said- when you put the Earth Etheric Weaver in a Pyramid or Metatron Pyramids such as we were sitting under, – that they heal not only you- but also the environment and Earth..working like generators that draw negative past and future karma, transforming it to become more aligned to the initiations for the nations and humanity. “pyramid

From their website: ” The Etheric field is God. It is the pulse and the matrix that holds everything together. Through your humility, you ask God to work through you, not to be in charge of you but to co-create with God. It is the intellect that causes separation and it is through the Etheric Field where the past, present and future the mind, emotions and the physical all come together and can be healed. “ ….Sitting under this pyramid, holding these wands, listening to the sounds of a deep and resonant hum…  according to the Nuns, provided us Soul Therapy. A most fascinating experience as we both sat, eyes closed, slipping in the midst of a crowd of many, into a realm beyond this space. In all honesty i likely could have sat there, peacefully, happily all day- the experience felt as if i was being fed a soul-level healing shift, while being encompassed by a protective energy, that at once felt subtly purifying. The experience itself lasted about 10 minutes, or so it seemed- in that transcendental state- it full well could have been more like an hour, a shift that is still taking place began in that chair, as i felt myself downloading light, becoming at once aware of my humanity, and my infinite nature- i was being given a message to move on, carrying with me the wisdom, and the hope that despite all that is stacked against us, against me in this life, be it illness, or poverty, or suffering or strife, i can hold fast to the inner knowing that this life is but a journey to something greater. An opportunity to evolve before the next level of existence, be it ascension, or re-birth karma, be it death before im old. I feel safe in knowing unequivocally- i can heal, me. The tools are everywhere, all around and every day becoming stronger. So it is my mission in this life, it is our mission in this life- as Nourished Warriors to share them with you, to empower you to Nourish Your Nature. Becoming bigger, better, brighter, bolder and move more brazenly towards your thriving.

Picture 12Overall Nourished Warrior ‘Arms factor’: 8.8

thank you to all whom provided us inspiration at the Total Health Show 2013, we carry on our collective journey, nourished by your kindness, your tools and your light.

staff* note as we continue to grow The Nourished Warrior we will be implementing a grading system of sorts, that based upon our experience with each particular tool- we will assign an ‘ Arms Factor’ numbered from 1-10- it will provide you with some insight as to how powerful each individual tool, has the possibility to be- within your Nourished Warrior Arsenal.

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what is a warrior?

While i have almost simply assumed that all whom arrive here, are already aware of what it means to be a warrior, but this morning i was inspired to share a perspective on it- beyond our initial creed

Traditionally, the word Warrior – equates with the idea of ‘fighting’, ‘battle’ or conflict. describes it as the following:


[wawr-ee-er, wawr-yer, wor-ee-er, wor-yer] Show IPA



a person engaged or experienced in warfare; soldier.

a person who shows or has shown great vigor, courage, or aggressiveness, as in politics or athletics.
If i were i would be removing ‘politics’ from equating with this term, however this gives a pretty decent jist as to just how this word is perceived in modern society.
Our perspective is much more idealistic, to us- the word warrior is less about fighting and more about love, and advocating endlessly that which we love. Empowering our purpose by devoting ourselves fiercely to brazenly fighting for its success, nourishment and thriving of our ultimate and collective journeys. Being a warrior is about bravely adhering to our path, unwaveringly serving the highest level good and light and uncompromisingly allowing ourselves to be – incredibly strong, willful and wise, humble, vulnerable and wise enough to nourish each facet of our nature as we move towards this higher consciousness, this better world, this greater reality- wielding our weaponless weapons of war- war against ego, war against ignorance, war against war itself and the mentality of the weak whom support a failing system, who buy into a mindless culture, who are duped by a heartless idea that we are all separate.
Part of the vision for the Nourished Warrior is based upon the idea that while as Warriors we must inevitably fight, we also must be wise enough to be weak. Be courageous enough to be small, be evolved enough to know the difference between thriving and flailing.
As we continue to develop to Nourished Warrior, we will be drawing some archetypes for you to identify with, some unique ways to align with the concept of being a warrior.
The nourishment we will seek to provide will differ for each Warrior- and during our evolution we will strive to bring all the best in healing, empowerment tools for each and every type of conscious warrior in the world, today.
“We may think of peace as the absence of war, that if the great powers would reduce their weapons arsenals, we could have peace. But if we look deeply into the weapons, we will see our own minds – our own prejudices, fears, and ignorance.”
– Thich Nhat Hanh

what is a warrior?

a way of thinking,

a way of being,

a way of life,

a way of perseverance,

a choice to perceive life as a series of challenges to be overcome,

a knowing. a knowing that we have all that we need encoded within us, and the warrior’s divine birthright is to reclaim it.

a path of faith,

of non-attachment,

a path that champions the heart,

a path of seeking- for the universe always blesses us with what is sought…

faith that darkness will inevitably bring light,

a path of discipline, honor and respect for the mind, the heart, for all life and our inextricable connections to all that is.

the warrior walks the path- kissing the earth with one’s feet… for the earth is the same as own temple.

the spirit of the warrior is a revolution,

It is a revolution.

the warrior inspires revolutions in understanding, revolutions in awakening, revolutions in compassion,

and proceeds with a beginners mind,

unafraid to stand naked in vulnerability and understand that in that moment we are at our most powerful…

a warrior knows the war is in our soul.

our egos presenting our most villainous foe.

the warrior knows each moment is pregnant with infinite possibility, and strives to live within each instance.

the warrior knows enlightenment is not a destination, but a state that’s within us- the warrior knows presence is key.

a believer in miracles,

a steadfast advocate for equality,

a warrior honours your beliefs,

a warrior questions their own, for with abandonment of belief we see truth.

a warrior recognizes suffering, and through clarity, calmness, & strength, it’s transformed.

certain our thoughts can change our reality we align our minds with our hearts,

defending the truth with humility,

armed with a hunger to learn,

we move patiently, consciously, fearlessly through our obstacles wielding our arms to meet ultimate victory-

the ultimate outcome of all battle – love.

a warrior fights for love, love of life, family, for community, for goodness, for humanity,

for all the wonder and the promise and the possibility swollen within the heart-

we build an arsenal,

empower ourselves with wisdom,

with veracity,

with unfailing devotion to achieve that ultimate reward-

to live in love.

the warrior is a storm,

a fire,

a force of nature compelled by steadfast knowing that all is impermanent,

and we can only strive to thrive in our own epic- heroes in our own lovestory.

the warrior’s creed connects us all.


“A warrior acts as if he knows what he is doing, when in effect he knows nothing.”

-Carlos Castaneda
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my medical marijuana journey: an experimental series: volume three

UPDATED | June 2017

it has now been several years since i documented this initial treatment journey and on a daily basis it still receives many hits as well as many emails from readers whom are seeking insight, clarity and guidance on this subject, and to that end i have made some important updates, additions, elaborations and clarifications. i will be going through each and every volume of this series and providing updates and additional knowledge and insights wherever possible. In the interim, i extend to anyone who is currently dealing with a health issue or seeking support in reaching optimal wellness, an invitation to connect with us directly, if there is something we can do to support you, especially if you have landed here by way of seeking out information on alternative cancer treatments- or if you are a woman who is undergoing hormonal issues or reproductive challenges, please reach out if you feel it is right for you. There is so much holistic wisdom to discover and, as it is our duty to serve the awakening and empowering of humanity, our goal is to empower you become a Nourished Warrior – and help you build an arsenal for thriving.

original story in italics | updates in green


It’s been 16 days since i began this journey, and having made the move from the capsules i articulated previously, directly to an oil version of this treatment- i have noticed a considerable difference in my need for sleep, it’s as if the plant is re-stacking my DNA from a cellular level, eradicating anything unnatural or cultivated from synthetic means- in the entirety of my system…

Last wednesday i went for an ultrasound: i posted a video on the results here.

It was pretty shocking to say the least- to walk into the sonographer’s office and see that the view of my insides from the ultrasound machine- was completely CLEAR! … how could i have had an entire reproductive system, riddled with fibroids and follicles and an unidentified mass that was potentially cancerous- just 10 short days before that??? The ultrasound technician, in fact, was so impressed by the health of my uterus she complimented me on the photos in such a way that it seemed she might want to keep them as evidence of what natural medicine is capable of- I shared with her my experiment although not the nature of the medicine, and she was slightly shocked but definitely delighted to hear of another case in which a patient had cured themselves through natural means…During the ultrasound she seemed incredibly confused as to why i was even in her office at all, she quite literally could only see a view of a very healthy uterus, showing no signs of PCOS, no signs of a cyst, no signs of any abnormalities whatsoever, and i left her office with a sense of disbelief and profound relief- even while i still need to visit the specialist again on the 9th in order to receive the biopsy results, but from an ovarian and uterine standpoint i seem to be nothing if not vital, well, healthy and perfectly normal for a 32 year old woman.

This put a little bit of an unexpected twist on my plans to continue this series, and documenting the progression of healing which we originally thought would at least be as long as the wait until my next appointment as high-quality medicinal cannabis can typically take up to one month to build a cumulative effect in the body and build momentum enough to begin the eradication of cancer cells. 

as a vital sidebar here, it needs to be said, that all of this ( i.e the statements speaking to the success of cannabis use to treat disease  )  is subjective statement which is wholly dependant upon the individual, one’s holistic health status, the type of diagnosis, the stage and duration of disease in one’s body and whether or not one has been subject to any type of conventional treatment models- i.e chemotherapy, radiation, invasive surgeries and procedures and the host of other so-called traditional oncological ‘treatment’ protocols, ( which for critically ill patients unfortunately is more of a death sentence than a life saving prescription) cannabis can certainly improve the quality of life for all patients in all stages, immediately relieving some of the vicious symptoms resulting from the aforementioned side-effects of western medicine but for those who are undertaking a serious and time-sensitive, alternative approach to ‘cancer’ specifically-  the action of Cannabis and its ability to heal the body is categorically reliant upon 3 fundamental things 1- the current state of health 2- the timing of treatment and 3- the quality of the medicine*  ( *see updates below for additional information on this as well as more to follow in separate articles )

Having said that- at this juncture, there are currently alot of unanswered questions for me, were the doctors wrong? was there ever any suspected cancer to begin with? did they read the first ultrasound wrong? was he mistaken in thinking i had a giant cyst?       ( not even mentioning the immediate question- which is why a Dr. would even bring up the word ‘cancer’ without any diagnostic evidence to back it up..?

( UPDATE: this question that cropped up for me then, now certainly makes a whole lot more sense 4 years later, revising this article with profound knowledge gained around the ‘healthcare’ system as a whole ( from big pharma’s strangle-hold on the entire medical industrial complex to suppression of natural cures and alternative therapies to more nefarious goings-on such as false-diagnosis-for-profit ) the full scope of this truth is staggering ) Particularly revolting is the billion dollar ‘business of cancer’ … ( a highly organized monopoly inclusive of: Pharmaceutical companies, a system of charities who collect money for ‘research’, plus Medical Associations ( AMA etc. ) and a host of Federal agencies ( which vary by country but in the US would include the FDA etc. ) …to take on disclosing this breadth of understanding in entirety, requires several new instalments to this series, which are currently in-production- however; as a prelude, i would offer the following  for your consideration and to serve as a tool to further your own personal research-

1. Cancer doctors have a financial incentive to give you toxic chemotherapy treatments, even if you don’t have cancer {  See this article for information on the unravelling story of US Doctors, who have been facing prosecution for intentional false-diagnosis to push cytotoxic chemotherapy treatments }

2. The Cancer Industry is too prosperous to allow a cure the ‘cancer factory’ continues to be a multibillion dollar piggybank filling the pockets of the few, while countless patients suffer needlessly. Please visit this article for historic documentation, scientific facts on treatment, financial statistics and the truth about Physicians and the cancer factory }

2b – among the plethora of often buried evidence scientific and otherwise- over the last 30 years alone- here are a few choice quotes around ‘standards of care’

  • Top doctors: “Chemotherapy, is one of dozens of procedures shown to ‘give no benefit’ a list was created by 11 top specialists, who were each asked to think of five prominent health-care treatments they felt provided little to no patient benefits; Academy of Medical Royal Colleges ( AMRC) said that “chemotherapy cannot cure terminal cancer, The treatment is ‘by its very nature toxic’ – Therefore, the combination of failing to achieve a response and causing toxicity can ‘do more harm than good.’
  • A 2004 study also found that cytotoxic chemotherapy does very little towards enhancing cancer survivors’ 5-year survival rates. Research, led by scientists from the Department of Radiation Oncology at the Northern Sydney Cancer Centre of the Royal North Shore Hospital, located in Sydney, Australia, raised serious questions about the actual efficacy of curative and adjuvant chemotherapies. What they found was that chemo only contributed 2.3 percent to the 5-year survival rate in adults, and in the U.S., that number dropped to 2.1 percent.
  • The AMRC urges doctors and patients to question whether or not particular treatments are necessary and while i am not a medical professional i certainly share the sentiment. The word ‘cure’ is rather a loaded term. Its very definition infers a restoration of health, a healing ‘ making well, whole, or right. ‘ I would pose to any readers whom are currently in the midst of dealing with ‘disease’ whether it is your own, or the illness of a loved one, to examine the current course of action being prescribed to ‘cure’ said illness, consider the statement which is very often made by those who are undergoing allopathic cancer treatment ‘ the cure is worse than the disease‘ – a statement which for those who have been subject to the abuses of the for-profit industry, must ring true. If you are on this page, reading these words, chances are that you are already of the mindset that these conventional methods are not serving the proposed purpose and have opened your mind just enough perhaps to google one of the keywords which led you here, which is the first step on the journey to true healing. In the age in which we live, information is a crucial currency to waking up and taking control over your own destiny. The truth is, that the truth is… terrifying, but beyond that terror is liberation. Beyond the fear that is instilled by every aspect of our programmed reality, is an understanding that your birth right is to thrive.

2c- it’s in the numbers:  

  • 17,435,275 = the number of deaths via chemotherapy since January 2000 – BIG PHARMA’S CHEMICAL WARFARE ON HUMANITY DWARFS THE NUMBER OF VICTIMS KILLED BY ALL WORLD WARS AND ACTS OF TERRORISM COMBINEDWhile drug companies profit billions, people are dying by the millions. For some real perspective on the numbers, visit the Big Pharma Death Clock- developed by the Health Ranger to statistically show the impact of those only concerned by their bottom line…
  • In America the reality is that 1 in 3 people will have cancer in their lifetime; a crazy number given that in your Grandparents time it was more like 1-15- the sickest part of this ( IMO ) is that patients are actually getting younger and younger.

( a personal experience sidebar: A member of my extended family, was diagnosed with testicular cancer at just 28, just a few years after he was married. He had all the benefits of a universal healthcare system at his disposal ( or rather-whatever poor excuse for care can actually be called ‘benefits’ under the OHIP i.e- the Ontario Health Insurance Program ) and 4 years later, many rounds of chemo and radiation later- he has had both of his testicles removed and i can only imagine the impact that this has had on his young marriage and their dreams for the future, even in a country where we are supposed to be blessed by government subsidized healthcare, even in a time where all of the information on alternative treatments is widely available, he is still now barely into his 30’s and has gone through far more poison and suffering than one should ever have to deal with at such a young age. The thing that shocked me the most is running into his mother the other day in the grocery store, inquiring as to his health- it came about in the conversation that testicular cancer has become ‘a young man’s disease’  equally shocking to me is the notion that this generation is speculated to be the first ever who potentially will be outlived by their parents. How is it that with all of the wisdom, all of the possibility, all of the potential for living a thriving life, that is available to us… We are dying before we reach middle age?! This is baffling and at once incredibly nauseating to me, knowing that for the most part these diseases are not only curable but preventable! Unfortunately, largely this vital knowledge reaches very few people due to a myriad of factors from controlled media perception to misinformation campaigns to disinformation agendas, and the root of much of the suffering and fallout from that traditional cancer ( and disease treatment in general ) is fear. plain and simple- fear. Manufactured fear which is seeded into the collective unconscious like a sleeper cell, awaiting activation- or more accurately in the case of so many patients- awaiting diagnosis. It is this fear which creates perhaps the biggest obstacle to natural healing- which was affirmed by my experience watching this young man turn his back on the cannabis solution that we offered – and instead following the fear-based protocols layed out by bigpharma funded oncologists… sadly this is a story which is all too common in the times in which we live. It is not unique and happens an uncalculable amount of times per day. Still every moment, the agenda washes your brain into believing that you have only the options set before you by those who line their pockets with your illness. The medical industrial complex is a fear factory with cancer as its primary boogey man. And the human side of that is that the so called ‘run for a cure’ has become a ‘run from the cure’

– back to the original documenting of my experience: i was speaking to the many questions which had at this juncture crept up into my consciousness- alongside the initial inquiry as to why the fuck a Dr. would even bring up the word ‘cancer’ during my first visit to him.  ( i understand of course that during an examination in which he discovered a large mass in my ovary- this would be the general course of action for his profession … however there is bedside manner amidst all else, isnt there? )…. And, might i add here- for those women like myself who are seeking answers for any issue related to their reproductive systems- please, please educate yourself prior to any appointments wherein you might face examination that includes a potential biopsy. Because what i went through, on the table that day was literally in the top 3 or so of acute painful experience. I refer to an unprecedented and unplanned for biopsy of my uterine lining, which he swore to me at the time ” wouldnt hurt a bit ”  ( how the fuck he could say that not having a uterus himself is beyond me! ) as he came towards me with 12 inch scissors and the nurse held my hand… what wasnt going to “hurt a bit” had me screaming “NOOOO, MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!” and in immediate sobbing tears from the pain. Little did i know, upon my later-research i discovered that such a procedure is meant to include pain medication &/or anaesthetic of some form, at the very least some lidocaine spray or even some forewarning; because my recollection of that experience will continue to be one of the worst medical experiences of my life. Again- For those ladies out there who are in the process of seeking medical answers for fibroids, PCOS, or any other issue which might garner a biopsy- please, please demand that they offer you something in the form of proper freezing. ) At the time i had been been in alot of pain for months and months and, perhaps showing signs of potential ‘disease’… and my mind was a spinning with questions… perhaps spurned on by the use of the word ‘tumor and cancer’ …

“Why are people terrified when they hear the word cancer? Because they know it [conventional cancer treatment] doesn’t work.” (Dr. Julian Whitaker, M.D. Founder, Whitaker Wellness Institute)

post- ultrasound and much introspection i wondered how i had gone from fibroids and giant ovarian masses and biopsies to what would inevitably become a clear pathology. given the general stock-answers on ‘efficacy’ and such, typically given by western medicine doctors’ it was a tough decision as to whether i would share with him the self-treatment regime i’d been undergoing, basing the extent in which i would share- upon his reaction to the ultrasound, and how he intends to account for the things which he told me ( or rather, filled my head with ) at my previous appointment… i truly wish i could take my little iPod into his office and record his explanation of the current state of the union that is my body- and in fact if there is a way to do this on the DL, spy-styles, i believe i will try to do so – even just so i can share the reality of how a western medicine doctor addresses his potential mistakes, or addresses inexplicable healing happening in the body of a patient whom was previously thought to house potential ‘cancerous cells’..

another important addition to this content, is to draw a correlation between ‘cancer’ and women’s issues such as uterine fibroids, PCOS etc. ( all of the above i had been at one time or another been supposedly ‘diagnosed with’ ) to speak to a common misconception about cancer; It is believed & very much portrayed as a ‘genetic’ disease. When it is in fact a metabolic disease. Let me say that clearly: Cancer is not a genetic disease it is a metabolic disease. Furthering the agenda of convincing you that cancer is caused by ‘genetic abnormalities’ is the supposed ‘research’ conducted for the pharmaceutical industry which serves the drug companies bottom line and their narrative very well. They want you to believe that a ‘cure’ needs to be based upon genetics, and thus more and more drugs need to be developed to match each individual’s genetic profile and specific ‘type of cancer’ ( this inaccurate, ill-conceived belief system gets them hard-  excitement around genetics has its roots in knowing that these drugs and medical treatments only make them rich vs. offer up cures to most cancers…a belief system that fuels the sick cycle referred to as ‘ cut poison burn‘ by filmmaker Wayne Chester in the documentary ‘cut poison burn’  ) They want you to stop asking why this poison cut burn protocol is the only approved treatment for cancer. Why is surgery, radiation and chemo the only medically advised avenue? These treatments do not cure cancer. They fuel sickness and fill pockets. The narrative they would have you believe does not involve you asking questions about where the ‘cancer research’ money goes. Why has the 4decadelong, so-called ‘war on cancer’ perpetually failed to produce any cures, let alone any results at all? Why hasn’t there been any new FDA approved therapies in 100 years?  These are the questions they don’t want you to ask, their narrative would have you stand ignorantly and complicit-ly by, never questioning while every single day thousands die.. 

Cancer, like all diseases- ( the very etymology of the word ‘dis’ – ease speaks volumes )  is a disease which is cured by balancing the body. By starving out cancer cells and detoxing any and everything that it depends on, from the body it is ‘cured’ What cancer thrives on is similar to what drives women’s conditions such as PCOS…Above normal levels of insulin in the blood stream can both drive hormonal instability that leads to issues such as PCOS and fibroids and at once it provides the conditions that cancer depends on to thrive. ( Cancer cells depend on glucose to survive and proliferate ) This is just one of the links between Cancer and conditions such as PCOS, fibroids etc. there are many parallels and correlations that can be drawn here, however my intention for this digression was originally to provide a basis for why i focused so much on ‘cancer’ in this article, my story, in actuality is about the journey to uncovering answers for my own reproductive symptoms. perhaps i will focus more on the link between these diseases in the future, for now i hope this has provided even some small measure of insight… )

In addition to that nourishing, inspiring and empowering update, i would also like to briefly share a little as to how i have been feeling during the last week of treatment. We made the executive decision to switch from raw, whole-plant capsules to straight oil(s); the medicine we are using is two-fold, A- a raw supercritical extract which is undecarboxylated, thus preserving the acid molecule of the dominant cannabinoids ( i.e CBDa and THCa ) using indica dominant high-CBD flowers and with a cold-process method, extracting the divine, healing nectar in a way that strives to retain a full spectrum therapeutic effect inclusive of a full entourage of cannabinoids, and critical medicinal terpene profile.  ( not to be confused with Rick Simpson oil which is a different process and produces a different high-THC end-product vs. the high CBD, anti-mutagenic, tumor-fighting product that i am using ) the medicine itself: is the sticky consistency of a highly resinous essential oil. with quite a powerful onset, meaning i begin to feel the effects within minutes of sucking the teeny pinpoint size dab from my finger tip…

perspective: this is an excerpt from a documentary ‘ride with Larry’ a former South Dakota Police Officer and 20 year Parkinson’s Sufferer. Symptoms include severe dyskinesia, tremors, speech loss etc… Aided by A Cannabis advocate and fellow Parkinson’s patient, Larry showcases the raw power of this plant medicine.

It is of vital importance to understand that regardless of the health concern you are facing, if you are seeking optimum medicinal benefit from Cannabis, you should not under any circumstances be smoking it. I have been taking small doses of this oil three times a day, ( as is a family member whom is using high CBD cannabis oil as a substitute for pharmaceutical pain medications…results to come.. ) …in brief discussion with this family member as to how we have been feeling- we both, at the same time, bursted out with the same sentence, ” it’s like it is reprogramming our DNA”… and that is almost precisely how it feels.. it’s as if the energy of the plant medicine, once inside you- embarks on a mission to re-arrange any and everything that is out of organic-order.. i like to think of it as “ physiological feng shui” – at a cellular level, this plant transforms all that is off-kilter, all that is skewed, all that has been rendered out of place by toxins, or free radicals or by years of mal-nourishment… it’s almost difficult to articulate this feeling of being ‘restacked from the inside out’- if i can muster up the words i will post a video describing this; But for those who cannot envision by way of my words, the energetic shift that i am eluding to here:

  • SKIN: I have noticed my skin clearing up, with juice cleanses, which i have been doing once or twice a month, for 4 days @ a time )  toxins leave the body by way of urine and by way of dermis- therefore you tend to notice blemishes or imperfections that crop up after sweaty workouts, or steam baths…anything that stimulates detoxification purge..  that said; the cannabis oil seems to be taking swift care of these blemishes, leaving me with a sort of glow that i never had before without makeup, or a post-orgasm flush ) … this discovery sparked what became Bodhi Blends®: the Nourished Warrior’s apothecary. Crafting bespoke alchemies featuring organic, raw, veganic and wildcrafted phyto-fuels.  Custom crafted Bodhi-care, high-vibration elixirs, handcrafted tinctures, antidotes & ambrosias. ( for more info on accessing or inquiring about Bodhi Blends please connect with me via this page )
  • DIET: as the cannabis re-arranges my homeostasis, and re-programs me from a cellular level, i feel better, i feel stronger,  Also i have been noticing that my hunger seems to be regulating itself, for years i had a very tumultuous relationship with food and with eating ( no doubt in part to the fact that i had an unrecognized eating disorder for most of my life)… but with the plant medicine – i am told that i must eat a hefty portion of protein at least once a day… i perceive this as being a gracious host to my body’s guest, and i have been working to ensure i ingest a significant amount of raw nuts between my protein shakes each day… Coupled with periods of raw juice cleansing and phyto-fuel supplementation- weight loss is supercharged as well. ( If you are seeking to lose weight at the same time as addressing health issues- i would suggest seeking out a holistic view of your overall wellbeing prior to undertaking any strategies. ‘Diets’ are a very complex and stereotype-driven subject, and more often than not, people, women especially find themselves falling into ‘diet-traps’ which unfortunately usually end up causing more harm than good and certainly aren’t something to be considering when dealing with any illness of any kind. ) My suggestion to anyone who is meeting health challenges is always going to be to begin with nutrition. Of course, this topic most certainly requires a novel-length discourse unto itself, but as a prelude, my recco. when considering treatment of any kind, is to begin with your diet. There are so many so-called disease which can be corrected using diet alone as a means to treatment. But, the protocols for this involve a re-education around food. ( as part of the Nourished Warrior’s mission to thriving, is partnering with people to teach ‘food as medicine’we are offering consulting and strategy for those seeking healing and more info can be found via this page )
  • REST:  I have also been sleeping alot more than usual, there was a time in my life, where i was near insomniac, although i considered it being an ‘intentional insomniac’,  because i had so much fire and so much drive that i would workout 3-4 hours per day at the gym, i would arrive home and spend the next 16 hours or so working – perhaps sleep an average of 3 or 4 hours, and get up to do it all again. I am no longer able to achieve this robotic-method of pushing myself into exhaustion, when the plant energy tells me i need to sleep- i sleep. this weekend i probably slept a total of 22 hours give or take, much more than usual for me- even as i have improved my schedule from years ago- i still strive to keep sleep last on my agenda ( despite being reminded continuously by my close friend who is a complete advocate for sleep as a cure-all medicine in itself )… with this improvement in my rest, i feel my body is better able to perform the transformation that it needs to, without taxing my reserves too much. I feel clearer on what my mission in this life is, and every day i get closer to uncovering some of the answers i have been seeking for so long, whether that’s how to build a sustainable business without compromising my heart or my integrity…or how to live consciously in a world that is imprisoned by suffering and deceit….facing these questions becomes easier. Insight arrives without the anxiety that came alongside truth for most of my life…. and for this gift-  I have to take a moment to thank the medicine for continuing to align me, from the inside out- as it re-organizes my DNA and equalizes my frequency, bringing me to a higher vibration, i evolve without any need for hours of meditation or days and days of fasting, or any other ancient or esoteric tool by way to achieve that higher level.. i simply find these states within. every moment is a blessing as i begin to vibrate higher, and rid myself one by one, of the toxins of my past, and the baggage from my body- the best part about this supplementation process is that  by taking this medicine, in this way, it’s just like another herbal supplement… none of the psychoactive THC-induced effects, it’s all CBD-vibes – which in essence makes me feel as if i am glowing from the inside out.  being fundamentally shifted to a higher frequency- the plant power works its magic and it feels like i am taking a tonic of pure-life… and as a willing co-creator, as a conscious witness to this… my heart heals from its previous- breaks-a plenty-and i am but am a willing co-conspirator, acting as the temple for the battle for optimal wellness. The Nourished Warrior will always prevail.

I have only one real mission here and that is to awaken people to the breadth of potential there is for healing. For taking control of your health. Taking your wellness out of the hands of those who profit from your sickness and becoming a warrior for thriving.

Real cures are out there, within your reach and will not cost you your life, or your life-savings. For those individuals who are seeking out alternative treatments, inclusive of medicinal cannabis and would like more information, you are welcome to connect with us- via this page.

if you are seeking holistic healing and are approved for the ACMPR program in Canada- please contact us for information on a raw, full-spectrum, CBD-rich supplement. 

again i reiterate: 

i extend to anyone who is currently dealing with a health issue or seeking support in reaching optimal wellness, an invitation to connect with us directly, if there is something we can do to support you, especially if you have landed here by way of seeking out information on alternative cancer treatments- or if you are a woman who is undergoing hormonal issues or reproductive challenges, please reach out if you feel it is right for you. There is so much holistic wisdom to discover and, as it is our duty to serve the awakening and empowering of humanity, our goal is to empower you become a Nourished Warrior – and help you build an arsenal for thriving. contact via this page.


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alternative health, my medical marijuana journey

My Medical Marijuana Journey: an experimental series: vol. 1

“What is a weed? …A plant whose virtues have not yet been discovered.”
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Disclaimer: this is not a story about smoking weed, it is not the ramblings of a modern day hippie waving a freak flag; I am not condoning (or condemning) the use of illegal drugs, nor is this series meant to promote substance abuse of any kind.
I am presenting factual evidence, research-based statistics and the realities of healing by ‘alternative’ means.
This series is documenting my journey to overcome potential ‘cancer’ and other health-related issues, using medicinal hemp.
Front and Centre I am just going to say it: Here is the reality: the cure for cancer exists; and it has been dutifully and at great length covered up for the better part of a century. Now that I am currently in this position in my life, I am choosing to use my voice to document an un-biased journey through the medical system and the western prognosis vs. my own simultaneous treatment.

my MMJourney, a series. volume one:
March 16th, 2013
This is day one of my medical marijuana experiment. In short: I am dosing to treat whatever illnesses have cropped up into my body as a result of a lifetime of neglect, abuse, and a combination of the damage done to my temple after 30 years of a lifestyle unfocused on wellness.
Suppose I should deliver a little on the background behind this experiment…  
first: the health issue.
In 2011, I spent most of the year living on the beach in Tulum, Mexico, without delving too far into the mournful particulars around what transpired suffice to say, for now- I became pregnant; had a miscarriage; had surgery in a Mexican clinic and was nearly kidnapped and sold into Spanish-sex trafficking while having to hurriedly escape the country …. all within a two week span.
Upon arriving home to Canada, convalescence was far from what i experienced; an ongoing series of health fall outs began to unfold…from a hard fought battle ending in emergency gallbladder removal surgery to the onset of a gastric ulcer,  and of course a case of amenorrhea that was the result of the aforementioned loss.  During this time, I was tossed around in the healthcare system, treated as no more than a number while my health card was swiped and the cha-chings rung loudly through the halls of many clinics, no doctor was giving me the relief that I sought.  
In constant pain, and on a steady diet of morphine and Motrin cocktails, I was a veritable zombie, sleepless, wasting and without hope… some nights consisted of eight hour stretches where i would vomit blood, bile and dry heave to the point where i sobbingly-swore my insides were coming out.  ( Oh, Had I only had access to the alternative treatments then, as I do now… )
I was assured through the series of ultrasounds and MRI’s I was undergoing as part of the gallbladder fiasco, that this incessant pain was due only to an organ that needed removal, rather than residual damage from the miscarriage. The surgery came and went and I began to heal although my menstrual cycle continued sporadically for the next year,  until September 2012- when it ceased completely.
Admittedly, for the first few months of being sans-menses, I considered it sortof a welcome reprieve, given the hemorrhage trauma previously suffered… thus not doing much about it save for silently knowing that something was off.  
After much persuasion from those close to me, I got in to see a Western Medicine Dr. to seek to uncover the issue…  
She ran a slew of tests- already knowing the diagnostic-drill, I dutifully obliged with patient hopefulness that nothing too tragic was amiss…after what seemed far too little digging to discover diagnosis as to why my period had suddenly ceased- I was (mis)diagnosed with PCOS.  
A condition that typically appears in women at the onset of their teen years and can cause anything from excessive hair growth to obesity, (at a relatively small: 5’4 130 pound fair-haired blonde who barely needs to shave her legs, that certainly ain’t the case.)
Not buying this diagnosis, I shirked her insistence to immediately treat me by putting me on a high dose of hormones, which according to her, would regulate the situation, but I would have to take them for the rest of my days if I planned on eventually having a family.  
What the miscarriage in 2011 taught me above all else, is that I truly do have a desire to have children one day, be blessed by the miracle that is giving life to another human; and with the plethora of possible outcomes I have been presented with since January of this year- the outlook for that has been painted as bleak by those in the practice of corporate-medicine.
Now I have never been a real  believer in western medicine- to say the least; but most of all I have little faith left in a corporate-run industry that is built upon the backs of treating people with chemicals that ought to be banned, not added to the daily regime of so many…only fueling the cycle of sickness and profit.
..So I skeptically said no, and immediately asked for a referral to a specialist.
Several weeks passed and I ventured off to the OBGYN who started from square one in seeking to find the answer for my irregularities.
-a barrage of questions  and a routine internal exam revealed a cyst so painful and large that when the Dr. discovered it- I squealed like I had been maliciously stabbed.
Discovery of this strange mass led to an incredibly painful biopsy of my endometrial lining, ( and i mean painful…hysterics, hyperventilating screaming painful )  
So now, not only was I irregular- and possibly suffering from a ‘hormonal disease’ but I had somehow, in the last six weeks, grown a giant mass in my left ovary.
” cancer. tumor. unidentifiable growth. “… inside the left part of my reproductive system.  

Needless to say- this use of language ignited a deep seated worry within me.
( a little background on my lifestyle at present, would reveal that i am not uneducated as to the ‘secrets’ of sustaining optimal wellness:  
I eat almost all raw, gluten free, organic, and whole foods as well as supplementing with natural and ayurvedic plant medicines, such as turmeric, ashwagana, green tea, maca, hemp, omegas, d vitamins, pro-biotics, greens and a series of other nutritional boosters including isagenix which is a wholistic cleansing and wellness product system. )  
Suffice to say- I do all I can to promote nutritional balance to an unbalanced system that has been in part, cultivated as a by-product of a food-system that breeds so much sickness. So I am not coming into this situation- from an unhealthy lifestyle. I have been moving away from previous abuse and towards making wellness an priority for the last three years or so)
In a not very forthcoming manner, amidst the mutterings of words like ‘ overgrown cells, cancerous growth and several other not so comforting terms,  I was sent off along my way with the need for yet another ultrasound of my insides,  and a prescription for ten days of high level hormone therapy, to see if I would regulate, I was told to do as I was prescribed and return in four weeks for the biopsy results etc.
Fearful and uncertain, I began to research all the possible illnesses associated with what had been found in my reproductive system.
Overwhelmed and in disbelief- I quickly ceased to continue research altogether and spent the rest of the night quietly praying and sharing my experience with select few close to me.
It was later that evening that an alternative revealed itself…I would definitely not describe myself as a ‘ do as you are told’ type of chick.
I have never much abided by rules restrictions, definitely not believing something until I had all the concrete and experiential evidence to prove it to my left brain self. And so it is with that perspective that I undertake this experiment.
now comes the herbal component of this journey…
While its initial roots go back thousands of years, As far back as the Mesolithic, or Middle Stone Age, the cannabis plant has been harvested for a plethora of sacred, religious uses: 1 along with lifestyle 2 and health-related uses 3 since the dawn of time, yet still there remains ” mostly unfounded skepticism about the many medicinal benefits of cannabis and a tremendous level of fear-mongering about its purported harms.” 4

Its use in modern day medicine has been well documented as far back as the 1800’s cannabis was widely used by physicians, it was a regular part of their healing arsenal and could be found in nearly every Dr’s tool-kit. It was not until the early 1940’s when the industrial revolution changed nearly every industry and healthcare started its gradual shift towards a more corporate, bottom-line driven business focused on generating on profits over cures, 5 that cannabis began its journey to becoming an outlawed and demonized ‘weed’, rather than go-to cure-all ‘plant’.
In 1942, Cannabis was removed from the U.S. Pharmacopeia because of continuing concerns about its safety. In 1951, US Congress passed the Boggs Act, which included Cannabis with narcotic drugs for the first time and finally, under the Controlled Substances Act of 1970, marijuana was classified as a Schedule I narcotic along with other harmful substances such as cocaine, meth, etc.

making our own medicine…
Someone very close to me- who was born to be a botanist among so many other things ( artist, musician, etc. ) had been curing his last batch of premium medical grade cannabis since last May, when he harvested five of the most potent organic plants that you would be likely to find this side of Humboldt county.
His interest in growing herbal medicine likely began before he was born- as familial roots reveal an ancestry of Naturalists and nature worshippers,
And with his own journey through the medical system, and dealings with chronic pain…his desire to grow medicine to treat those suffering from traditional ‘ non-curable’ diseases became more and more of a motivator.
For a few years now he has been in the process of getting his approval from the MMAR – Medical Marijuana in Canada is operated under the strict guidelines of Health Canada
which = very few licenses issued each year and so much red tape that often peeps get so bound up in the red- that they never progress pass the initial application stage.  But My Dear one has been patient. He was working with a renowned Dr. in Toronto- who called himself a Cannabinoilogist. but now retired he is seeking another medical practitioner to muddy through the paperwork needed to get production approval to cultivate more than five plants.
However, the initial ability to grow for personal use enabled him to harvest two batches of biodynamically grown, fully organic, high CBD – medical grade Indica-Sativa in 2012. One strain, northern lights, is renowned for its high CBD content, ( CBD or cannibidiol is one of the 483+ naturally occurring chemicals in marijuana,  
it is not psychoactive like THC, but works more on the physiological level- treating pain, and disease from a very cellular level.
Studies have seen cannabis and its extractions, do the following things, ( and yet it remains a class one narcotic- fully illegal in the USA and Canada – with select variations on the laws from state to state and in Canada under the MMAR. 6 )
– amelioration of nausea and vomiting,

stimulation of hunger in chemotherapy and AIDS patients,

lowered intra ocular eye pressure (shown to be effective for treating glaucoma),

ceasing epileptic seizures,

forcing tumors to go into remission,

treating the effects of Parkinsons disease,

and acting as a general analgesic / painkiller;

and alleviation of the effects of many other degenerative diseases that remain a supposed ‘mystery’ to western medicine researchers.  7
The cannibinoids in the plant, once ingested- basically act as scavengers, seeking out the free radicals in the body, that transform and cause disease ie: cancer cells etc. 8
specifically related to cancer, testing has shown that the cannibinoids work in the body in such a way that they actually trigger unhealthy cell death, through a mechanism called ‘apoptosis’ read: they direct the cancer cells to commit suicide.  Recent studies found THC binds to protein receptors on cancer cells, inducing the cell to make a fatty substance called ceramide, which prompts the cell to devour itself. ( Non- cancerous cells do not make ceramide in contact with THC, and so do not die. ) 9

An interesting reality that few people may know- ( as it is part of the truth that is so suppressed and mis-represented), is that human beings actually have, present in our brains, endo-cannibinoid receptors. The same as we have DMT receptors 10  ( see Ayuhuasca >), receptors, ie: There are naturally occurring chemicals in the human physiology, that are also present in cannabis, the plant.  Mother’s milk contains endocannabinoids that assist a child with stress, promote appetite, and protect cells from oxidation.
During the course of our life, our immune systems address potential threats by creating “reactive oxygen species” or free radicals. While protecting us, free radicals create inflammation that can cause damage to the body. It is the role of our bodies’ endocannabinoids to control free radicals and regulate this healing behavior. This information has been gathered from an article titled- ‘ Could Cannabis be an essential nutrient? ‘ please read the entirety of this article for more valuable evidence. 11

So last night, it was 3:30 a.m.. and I had been asleep an hour.
I was awoken by my loved one, in my room-  producing a small pill bottle and promptly pronounced, ” I want you taking one of these a day- starting now every day for a week, next week we will start giving you two. ”
He had created capsules for me to dose, containing four strains of the most potent strains possibly ever known to man blended into a fine powder.
I have asked him for the purpose of this piece, to elaborate on the science and alchemy behind making this medicine:
” Over the course of the last few years, I have had ample exposure to both medical grade cannabis and its big-pharma counterparts- which in essence are synthetic versions of isolated cannibinoids- mass produced and prescribed for everything from cancer and aids side effects to chronic pain, which was my own health concern. I tried the prescribed medication (nabilone or cesamet) 12
with little success, although I had gone into it suspecting its lack of value due to the method in which is is produced; however for the sake of research and in seeking out my own relief any way I could- I followed the Dr’s recco for about a month before side effects took hold and I was no longer able to ingest these perversions by medicine, of a plant I knew to be a miracle otherwise.
Through my own research on the subject I have found that most (=90 percent) of the research done on the medical benefits of cannabis- is either biased or just misses the mark completely by focusing on the wrong criteria;  
Such as isolating and synthesizing one chemical out of the hundreds present in whole plant cannabis  
– or even more prone to marginalization, mis-representation and misgiving: only testing inhaled cannabis.  
Here is the problem with both of those research methods:
A ) The chemical most talked about in marijuana is THC;, The reason for that is that it is present in the highest amount when the plant is harvested, (and it is the main reason your neighborhood hippies smoke it )  
But it is what happens when you CURE the cannabis that researchers and most people in general, are missing.
– CURING, is a process similar to the aging of wine is done by taking the mostly dried buds and first slowing the drying
process down by placing them in glass jars, in a cool dark place-,  
– What this does, is allow more of the plant sugars to turn to THC thus ensuring that the buds are as potent as can be.
– Once that is done most cannabis is sold and used as medicine, but I’ve found through my own research that if you continue to CURE the cannabis for up to 12 months
the THC begins to break down-, becoming less psycho-active and the more medically valuable chemicals including CBD and CBN both of which have shown to treat/cure epilepsy and other diseases.
– When cannabis is in its raw form – these cannabinoids are in the form of acids THC-acid, CBD-acid it is not until these cannabinoids are heated to a certain temperature (Decarboxylation) that they become psychoactive,  
also when these chemicals are burned the patient is only receiving a small fraction of the medicinal benefit  (34mg of an available 174mg/gram)
thus making the two main clinical testing methods almost useless ( -although it serves to be said of course, that smoking is helpful for some things like glaucoma, chronic pain and some stomach problems etc. )
Put another way you can compare this to the raw food movement, as the same premise applies here– 13 when you heat your food fast a certain temperature it begins to lose its full nutritional potential )
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in addition to this:
It has been found that when fresh, the plant contains a lot of non- psychoactive precursor Cannabinoids such as THC acid. THC acid (THCa) which have recently been shown to have anti-inflammatory and neuroprotective effects.
By nourishing our endocannabinoid system, the juiced leaves and buds can also help the body function more efficiently, effecting all 210 human cell types. 15
I am supposed to be medically licensed In Canada to grow a ‘personal’ amount of plants; but I didn’t just throw some seeds in the ground, I’ve studied for years all the aspects of marijuana cultivation and through teachings by experts and botanists, personal experience and alot of trial and error I’ve found which strains (varieties) of cannabis are best for medical use.
I procured genetics (seeds) from around the world and grown many varieties most of which I’ve used as medicine ..but there were a few promising strains which i harvested last year and have continued to cure in a special place, for the better part of a year.
Speaking to the production of the plant based medicine that is being given to my sister,  
For the onset of this experiment, I am testing the use of high level CBD cannabis- delivered via the ‘curing method’
– I took the four best strains of cannabis I had on hand (the reason for the multiple strains, is that each strain of cannabis has a unique makeup of different cannabinoids at different levels and since no one quite knows yet- exactly which strain, chemical or combination of chemicals is most healing for any particular illness. I made the conscious decision, that the best plan would be to use as many of the best and most potent varieties to mix for the medicine.
I did so by grinding them up and mixing them together into a fine powder and putting them in a capsule which I estimate to have 150mg of active medicine per/capsule and I advised to start by taking one per day,  to monitor the effect and then once comfortable, we will up the dosage to 2, and progressing with treatment as the evolution of her wellness dictates “

So suffice to say- I have a ton of research, experience and expertise backing my experiment.  
I have seen so many success stories– 16  from sufferers who have been completely cured, and are not only are able to function and live normal lives again, but they are also being the change in that they are stopping the cycle- of big pharma profit by shedding the light on a better way.
A simple Google of the terms ” cannibinoids and cancer” or cannabis and cancer will reveal that the evidence is vast and stretches far and wide.

There is a forerunner in the field of using Cannabis as a cure-all, who is located somewhere here in Canada, His name is Rick Simpson, a self-proclaimed hemp activist, and leader in the medicinal cannabis movement. Rick has started a worldwide movement with aim to bring hemp, man’s oldest known and safest medication, back into widespread medicinal use.

Rick’s website Phoenix Tears ( advocates use of hemp for use from eradication of disease to overall wellness and preventative maintenance.
Last year Rick released the film ‘ Run from the Cure’, 17
Which quite simply proposes the notion that Cannabis is not only a miracle plant, but a plant that has the power to change the world in a very real way, from all aspects of life.
Run from the Cure documents Rick Simpson’s journey- and has been produced, for free, to teach the world how to heal itself of disease and illness using cannabinoids.

The method that Rick uses to create his medicine, is an extraction process by which he is harnessing the healing powers of the cannibinoids in hemp plants, formulating a whole-plant medicine that acts on all illnesses present in the human body.
This medicinal formulation that Rick is advocating is made solely to treat illness – to be utilized as a form of medicine- aka: it does not get you high, it does not produce any psychoactive response, but rather the opposite, the way this medicine is crafted is through the same previously-mentioned method of extracting the chemicals through a no-heat process, thereby preserving the integrity of the whole plant, and at once not releasing those chemicals in cannabis the create the ‘ high’ or psychoactive response.

Thus- The medicinal marijuana movement, is less about smoking and more about keeping cannibinoids in their raw and thus most potent form.

Some of the testimonials from patients who have experienced treatment via Rick’s 90 day program have testified to incredible results.
here are a few snippets of success:

“I’m an 18 year old med student, and I use hemp. I suffer from a form of autism that is called Asperger, [Asperger’s Syndrome] with hemp I don’t suffer from it and I can live a normal life. ”
“..I have been taking the hemp oil for the past 60 days with tremendous positive success for a chronic pain condition I have had since I was 18 years of age. For the first time that I can remember, I have little or no pain with the Ankylosing Spondylitis I have had to suffer with all my life.”
There is an ever-growing series of communications, updates and success stories from patients who have been treating their conditions from basal carcinoma to stage four terminal cancer that has spread throughout their bodies- please click here to read more about this… 18

The research and support behind this movement is beyond incredible, the evidence presented from so many different sources- and the success rates, simply do not lie.  Like many others, it seems this plant was put on the earth for us to use, as a healing medicine.  
Once again- I do not advocate the use of marijuana for the purpose of smoking blunts and getting couch locked into hours of infomercials and junk food binges, nor do I either condone one way or another the severe consequences- that have befallen those who have chosen to abuse this plant through crafting an underground drug-market that takes the lives of many each year.  
But rather through documenting my own journey, I want to shed a light on the proposed ability of this seeming miracle plant- to change lives in the most positive, surprising and empowering ways.
That is my mission with this series- and through my own trial period, I will lay down the most brutally honest responses, and the most blatant fact-based evidence possible to share my results with all.
This will also be a series about a race against modern medicine’s prognosis, wherein I will see whether in the timeframe between now, and April 9th when my biopsy results come back, I can change my potential diagnosis.
As far as I know, in Canada, this is the first publicly documented experiment of its kind, with the ability to at once expose what is going on in the healthcare industry- and its ties with big pharma, and the dark reality of how far they stretch… and at the same time document the effects and progress of a self-healing program
I will be documenting everything… and let’s be clear- at no point in this particular series am I, or will I be talking about ‘rolling a fatty, or vaporizing some sweet kush’
although all of that certainly carries with it – its own medicinal benefits.
This series is about the whole-plant cannabis as a healing method- it’s about cannabinoids in their pure form, ground into a medicine, and that medicine’s ability to do what many believe it was put on this earth to do cure humans from their often self-imposed illness, to cure us from the diseases we develop as a by-product of living in this industrialized, corporate-ized world, to help us maintain optimal health and at once bring together a world that with the development and cultural evolution of language, forgot its fundamental connection, both with the earth and with one another.  
to bring unity.  
& one love.  
” Herb is the healing of a nation”
~ Bob Marley

So with that all said:  
This is day one of my medicinal marijuana journey- and having layed down the logic for y’all on the whys- I wanna focus a bit on the effects and the reality of the medicine doing its work:  
– so far I’ve been awake two real hours- and an hour into taking the first dose, I felt fundamentally compelled to sit down here at my desk and start this series,  
inspiration flowing, feeling calm from the centrepoint out- which is something i so rarely get to experience since i abandoned a disciplined yoga practice and it is a welcome guest in my world.  
A burst of ideas for how to put the message out into the world and tie all the connections in this matrix of interconnected understanding of a plant that is alienated and at once embraced by the world.  

At the end of the horrific specialist’s appointment, the nurse informed me that I was likely to continue experiencing pain, cramping, pinching etc… which at this point I still am- though I can feel the plant doing its work and the pain slowly numbing; what I am trying to do, is imagine that the plant is inside me, doing its work- going up against whatever this unwelcome mass is, within my body… like a junkyard guard dog- protecting its turf.
With patience and grace, I will act as the temple where the war for healing takes place… working to warrior through in my own way, the only way I think I really and truly know how. through my words.
My plan is to continue with the medicinal form of cannabis for ten days as I am told, along with wearing my quantum pendant which consequently just got here in the mail yesterday… dawning my regular crystal intention/empowerment wear, drinking my alkaline water, and enjoying my isagenix program alongside the raw food diet that i have been moving towards for months now…keep my altar lit and incorporate a little less cardio and a little more vinyasa, and always, always,  more music.

I will see you on the other side of a week.
In the interim I would love to hear about anyone out there who has similar experience, who wishes to share their own personal story or who can attest to any remarkable results of their own.
One of my own dreams, is to one day build a healing collective where anyone and everyone is welcome to gather in the spirit of empowering collective wellness, and that foundation shall be built upon sharing.
with gratitude and much love,
sat Nam,
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to be continued…
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